→ 27 Nov 13 at 9 am
America is so weird sometimes. To give it credit I love the diversity of America. I look at my classroom every day and still can’t believe all the students are the same nationality. It’s just so strange to me. I’m still not used to it.
I’m glad I was brought up in America, because I know if I…
"I’m sad because I really never tried to actively retain the Greek culture my parents try so hard to give us. I should have appreciated things more when I was younger. I should have taken Greek classes. I really should have been prouder about my heritage. I always seemed to kind of just brush it off. If I wasn’t named Demosthenes, would I even tell people I am Greek?"
No, Demo I feel this so hard, my mom was always wanting us to learn Spanish and be proud of ourselves and Mexico and our heritage but we’ve ignored it. The Mexican in being Mexican American, especially in Texas where generations after generations tried so hard to rid themselves of any “culture.”
It does weird things to different people. I am one of 4 and because I left Texas I saw the damage or the danger in it, in suppressing or ignoring our “culture” but my brothers and my sister don’t care. They don’t see it, not because they don’t want to but they are used to the questions about their skin about their families and they have tried with everything in their might to change what they can about themselves. They have American names, and like you I’m the only one with a Spanish name, is that way I care so much? Because I’ve had no choice? Because I’ve had problems with the r’s in my name since day 1 of my formal education? Splitting my home life from my school/outside life? Would it even be the same for me if my name was Sarah?
Last year in fem theory I forget what I was reading, but it said basically to have culture in the US you are a second class citizen, to have any trace of culture,like language or skin color (which is an obvious give-away that we are “different”, though our types of food is acceptable?) or body type, or anything you are automatically asked “What are you?” which is like saying “You don’t belong here, what are you doing here?” Over and over….
"I’m glad I was brought up within two cultures because I am definitely more sensitive to cultures in generals. " Same.I agree 1000% its been painful and it’s been hard but I think I’m finally where I don’t have to pick one, a side or ignore one for the other, I’m a mezcla and that’s who I will always be there, no longer straddling one side or the other but creating a new space where I can be both. Where from the outside looking looking to enforce their authenticity tests that I will no longer care about those results.
It’s time I start owning all the parts that make me, me.