You know when you were going to be a thing with someone or it looked like a thing might happen but thing doesn’t happen and you really liked them and like were all kinds of crushed right after it didn’t happen
and THEN THOSE FUCKERS LIKE YOUR PROF PICS AND STATUS AND SHIT AND YOU’RE JUST SITTING THERE LIKE
NO NO NO YOU CAAAAAAANNNNN’T DO THAT
WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT stahp.
horrid selfies at unique waiting for Erin. she’s my pardner in crime.
everything we do together, and all I can do is think about Kim and how we were each other’s persons for a while and BBY GURL I MISS YOUUU.
So tired, so hungry, one last meeting at 5:30 before I just sleep for a thousand yearssss
When this happens
When I’m so stressed out
with work I procrastinated,prolonging imminent would be failure
When I am supposed to be working on that
lately more often than not, I just can’t bring myself to do it
I find myself just hanging out on my social media,
looking at what I’ve done and who I hung out with
it’s like I’m perpetually trying to realize I’m real,
my experiences were real
my existence is real
I’m trying to feel real
but being real gives way to wanting to feel real.
I want to know I’m real
what am I doing
doing what I’m always doing at 2:40 am on a Wednesday morning, reading for advanced feminist thought and I AM SO ANGRY
ITS ABOUT THE REGULATION OF WOMEN’S SEXUALITY INSTITUTIONALIZED IN THE FEDERAL SYSTEM AND HOW IT WAS AND HAS BEEN CODED AS HETEROSEXUAL AND HOW OUR SOCIAL HAS BEEN ORGANIZED ENTIRELY AROUND BIOLOGICAL REPRODUCTION
THIS. IS. SOME. SHIT.
like I KNOW we are controlled by the state who only ever cares about securing a population to control and work and keep oppressed but DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN